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On 4 September 2006, Channel 4 TV in England broadcast a one-hour documentary on Freezone Scientology. The copyright to this programme belongs to Channel 4--it is not in the public domain. Terril Park asked Channel 4 if it was OK to distribute DVD copies of the programme to individuals in the FZ and was told sure. This wiki page, and similar pages such as "Channel4doc_ru" or "Channel4doc_fr", are so that a transcript of that programme can be produced, and translated, by many people working at once world-wide without duplication of effort. This is in the spirit of Channel 4's permission as Scienowiki certainly does not attract a wide audience outside of the Scientology community. If Channel 4 objects, these pages will be deleted.

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Why, if Jesus could turn water into wine,
did he not do other things

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that were more relevant?  I mean, if you
were the Son of God and you had those

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powers, you wouldn't organize a
piss-up* at your pal's wedding.

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You would stop people starving.

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Now, I know he did that thing on the mountain,

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with the fish and the loaves of bread.

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But that was--he organized that meeting.

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It was the least he could do to lay on*
some catering.

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Sorry, I'm going to fucking really annoy
the Christians.

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My name is Hardeep Singh Kholi.

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I'm a writer, actor, director, presenter,
model, actress*, you know, whatever.

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Everyone I told of my impending journey
reacted either with laughter or scorn.

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I have ten days to find God--

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through Scientology.

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Hardeep

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Fuck you

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THANK YOU!

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The problem with you--you're stupid

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I'll repeat the auditing command

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I've got you brainwashed, mate*

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There are really no secrets any more

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The world is going to see Hardeep has
been brainwashed.

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There is not going to be another job
for you ever again.

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How are they gonna* feel, man?
You used the word "brainwashing?"

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[ONSCREEN TITLE: The Beginner's Guide to
L. Ron Hubbard]

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One thing my parents taught me, instilled
in me as a child, was that,

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and it is absolutely in the Sikh scriptures,
is that there are many roads to God.

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The Scientology road to spiritual enlightenment
began mid-last century in America.

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It was invented by L. Ron Hubbard,

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a prolific science-fiction writer living in
1950s California.

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It was initially dismissed by critics as
harmless self-therapy,

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a pop philosophy for the Atomic Age.

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Scientologists believe that all people are
spiritual beings called "thetans",

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who are held back from fulfilling their potential
as humans by negative past experiences,

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trapped in their subconscious which prevent
a person from achieving success.

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Scientology claims to have an answer for these
troublesome memories in the form of a process

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called "auditing".  This is said to be a cross
between counselling and confession,

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a process measured by an electronic machine
called the "E-meter".  Little is known

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about this ritual outside of the Church.  The
process claims to heal the mental scars

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accumulated over many lifetimes, allowing the
participants to live in an enlightened state.

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This is how the Church likes to be seen today.
The glamorous face of Scientology.

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Let me be blunt.  Scientology does have answers.

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And where you have failed it is only
because you lack the tools

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to effectively accomplish what you desire.

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Why are some of the most visible people on
the planet publicly singing its praises

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when the Church is awash with accusations
of cultism, brainwashing, and silent births?

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Will I come back a brainwashed comedian,
or will I find a religion that can deliver

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on its promise and unite the planet with
its spiritual tool-set for all?

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To be honest, the thing that I most worry about
is being brainwashed, and, so does my wife.

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We asked the Church to take part in this film.
They said,

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"To make it perfectly clear, it is a
curious choice to select a comedian who does

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not believe in organized religion
as your presenter.  It is offensive".

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Offensive.  At least Los Angeles in America
recognized that I'm a comedian.

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This and other restrictions imposed
on the film meant we could not explore

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my spiritual path through the
Church of Scientology.

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Luckily, I had learned that the teachings of
L. Ron Hubbard are taught outside the Church.

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It only took this religion thirty years
to reach its reformation.  My path is with

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The Freezone, the protestants of Scientology.

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The Church of Scientology treats
The Freezone as the dangerous heretics.

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They are not even allowed to
call themselves Scientologists.

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Contact with them has always been difficult.

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My first meeting was via a video link with LA.

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Roland is a leading figure in the Freezone,
and a former member of the Church.

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What happened in the Church during the late 70s?

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Well, the Church was a pretty dynamic organization.
There was a sudden change in about 1982.

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The current management of the Church took over
and ousted a pretty fair* number of the then-senior people.

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These people on leaving the Church attempted
to set up their own organizations,

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essentially delivering the same stuff as the
Church does but outside of the Church's orbit.

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The Internet has meant a flourishing of
the so-called Freezone.

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That is to say, the people outside of the Church
who are still active Scientologists

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and actively promoting and applying the
so-called technology.

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Roland had some advice for me regarding
my auditing session,

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a never-before-seen cleansing ritual and
the key to enlightenment through Scientology.

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What should I do on my journey?

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Just do it wholeheartedly, all the way.

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There are things about yourself
that you do not wish to confront.

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Things that you have done that
you don't want to admit to, things,

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weaknesses of yours that are ignominious
that you would not care to mention.

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When you go into session, eventually
you will have to confront all of those things.

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Hard to do,there are many layers of it,
it takes a while to do.

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It's not easy, but it is worth doing.

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As long as it is done with an auditor
who will not take advantage of you.

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Fuck! I hope I don't get fucked up
doing this film, man.

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Aren't you worried?

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Well, you're not fucking worried, you don't
have to do it, do you?!

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Now I'm worried, very worried, although
I'm not quite sure what I'm worried about.

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In order to fully prepare myself for auditing
I need to find a guide and mentor.

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It was with some anxiety
that I travelled to Saint Hill.

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Just outside of East Grinstead is the
spiritual home of L. Ron Hubbard,

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and the Church's base in the UK.

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I am here to meet Dominic

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the Church's highest-ranking
defector in over a decade.

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How do you feel when you look at it,
a place you used, you used to call home?

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It's a beautiful place.

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You can't go there anymore, can you?

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- Yeah, I understand.
- It's not, er--

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Hey, c'est la vie, man. That's life.

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Fearful of how the Church will
react to his participation

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Dominic insisted on meeting
away from his home.

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They're great people, and they really
believe in what they're doing.

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But it's very, you know--*

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they have people that decide
over your fate

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and if you don't do what you're
supposed to be doing

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then you're in real* deep trouble.

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Since leaving the Church, Dom* has joined
a European network of Freezoners

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who live by and practise Scientology.

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A group of the people that left formed
a thing called the "Ron's Org"

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Because L. Ron Hubbard,
by his friends known as "Ron"

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and they started the Ron's Org.

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Ron's Org says, "We only apply the
technology of L. Ron Hubbard".

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You have the Ron's Org,
the Church of Scientology,

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and then you have the Freezone
as a broad thing.

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But Ron's Org isn't one organization.
It's lots of little organizations.

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Yeah, lots of them.

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Is it hundreds of thousands, millions?

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No, no no no, it's not that big at all.

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Ten, fifteen, twenty staff, that big
and you would form an organization*.

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The organization is growing in Europe
but thrives in places like Russia

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which are beyond the reach
of the Church's lawyers.

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We're going to be travelling around,
and you'll get a good idea*.

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Dominic has bravely agreed
to be my guide and mentor.

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But what would you suggest
I do next?

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You want to find out
what Scientology is all about.

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You should, say, read a book, take a course.

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A good beginning course would be, like, HQS,

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which is, stands for
"Hubbard Qualified Scientologist" Course.

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Do one of those. Um, read the "Dianetics" book.

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Read, like, "Fundamentals of Thought",
or something like that.

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Tell me about the bridge.

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All right. Well, if you
put it like this, yeah?

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If you say you want to get to a
higher state of existence

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and you consider where you are right now

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is at a lower state of existence

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and you want to get to
a higher state of existence,

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well you have got to
get there somehow.

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And the concept is that
if you don't go the right way

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you'll end up in one hell of a chasm.

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So what you do is you walk the bridge.

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And Ron, basically Ron's writings
tell you the way to go.

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The bridge is the most important concept
in the teachings of L. Ron Hubbard

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and is actually two parallel bridges.

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Taking part in one side helps
you examine your subconscious;

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the other helps you with your waking life.

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The subconscious side is crossed
by taking part in auditing.

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The practical side of the Bridge
is a series of qualifications

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aimed at making a person
a better communicator.

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I've been rejected by the Church,
discovered the Freezone,

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and found a mentor who's willing to
guide me through basic training.

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Now, if I pass, he says he will audit me.

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The training is in Moscow

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and I will travel through four countries

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unearthing the Freezone movement

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and studying along the way.

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You've got to bear in mind
I'm reading

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and learning about Scientology
as I go along.

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I didn't study it all
before we started this journey

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and here is what I am discovering.

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Two very interesting things.

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Scientology has no great mystery,
no great questions of faith,

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no, er, reliance on you to simply believe.

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It, it can, it seeks to prove
everything it says.

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And also, people are very critical of it

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because it seems to be
written in a very simple form,

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and I was critical of it too
for being so, kind of,

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you know, a bit like, you know,
philosophy or psychology for the stupid,

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but actually, if you think about it,
it is incredibly inclusive.

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It ties in absolutely 
with that notion

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of there being no mysteries,
and no secrets.

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It's for people, any people, 
to pick up.

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- Max...Hi.
- Max...Hi...Good to meet you.

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I'm here to meet Max, head of
the Swiss cell of Ron's Org.

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Max runs the training camp in Moscow.

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I want to sign up for one of the courses,

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but first I need to be vetted,

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not only by Max,

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 but also by
his students and family.

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Try to make a difference between
the Church and Scientology.

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Take these things apart.

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Like, Catholic--Catholicism doesn't necessarily mean
the same thing like* Christianity, right?

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Are you happy not to be in the Church
any more? 

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- Do you miss the Church?
- No, no.

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In the beginning I was thinking
it was a philosophy.

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Sometimes I was really thinking it was
some kind of psychology.

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I had a hard time to understand,
why is this called a religion?

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As for me it's a philosophy and sure,
this spiritual factor and

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this thing that you can improve
yourself with.

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You find answers. You find answers
to have in life.

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We find knowingness, and then
we don't need to believe.

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You can use it because there
is a wisdom and there is a truth in it.

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You cannot control people
without truth,

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or without making them

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- believe...it is the truth.
- Yeah

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I don't have to
go and pray.

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I don't have to 
not eat this or eat that.

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I don't have to cut my hair
or not cut my hair.

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I don't have to do anything
different in my life at all

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apart from the fact I have
someone come to my house

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or come here
and I do audition*.

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That is the only change,
and, and

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my life is getting better and
better and better by the week

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every time I do it.

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I'm struggling to understand
your Swiss accent.

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Do you believe in God?

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Not in the, in the sense of believe,
er, a power of that being,
a higher power God [?], I don't believe*.

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Do you believe in God?

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Yes, but I have
a special definition.

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I was always asking,
"Who is God?",

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"Vat*, what is God?", and, er,

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when I started in Scientology

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I...er, found a definition
in an old, big dictionary.

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It, er, made*, er,
"A spiritual being,

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er, "an extra-terrestrial spiritual being",

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and in fact if, that's,
that's OK for me*.

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The absence of any consensus
about God was refreshing.

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But what I really wanted
to know about was auditing.

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As you hold the cans an electrical current
is passing through you.

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It is really, really, really light,
you don't even feel it.

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When you get a question
or a command,

219
00:13:29,377 --> 00:13:32,818
if there is stress,
the electricity has a resistance

220
00:13:32,819 --> 00:13:35,316
and it can't pass through
your body as easily

221
00:13:35,317 --> 00:13:37,514
and so it shows up
on the auditor's meter.

222
00:13:39,735 --> 00:13:41,175
I'm none the wiser* about auditing,

223
00:13:41,176 --> 00:13:44,712
but Max _has_ agreed to host me and
the cameras at his camp in Moscow.

224
00:13:44,896 --> 00:13:48,580
I've now got two days and 800 miles
to get myself up to speed.

225
00:13:49,810 --> 00:13:51,863
OK, I've got to just spin [?] back here for a minute,

226
00:13:51,912 --> 00:13:54,288
OK.  "Scientology expresses this briefly.

227
00:13:54,289 --> 00:13:56,244
"The cycle of action is
an apparency as follows,

228
00:13:56,245 --> 00:13:59,850
- "Create, then Survive, then Destroy"...OK?
- Yeah.

229
00:14:00,280 --> 00:14:01,679
L. Ron describes it as,

230
00:14:01,698 --> 00:14:04,008
"The actual cycle of action
is as follows:

231
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- "Create, create-create-create,
- Mmm-hmm

232
00:14:07,358 --> 00:14:11,472
"create counter-create,
no creation, nothingness".

233
00:14:13,634 --> 00:14:14,985
OK.

234
00:14:17,170 --> 00:14:18,175
Discuss.

235
00:14:19,422 --> 00:14:20,956
[...this?] I don't know

236
00:14:23,958 --> 00:14:25,813
I mean I understand it,

237
00:14:26,191 --> 00:14:27,061
I'm just not quite sure

238
00:14:27,062 --> 00:14:29,262
- what the point of it is.
- Yes

239
00:14:30,679 --> 00:14:33,924
- [You came up with...?]
- Can _you_ tell me how that's--

240
00:14:34,161 --> 00:14:38,520
I'm interested in _your_ definition of
the actual cycle of action [in that?]

241
00:14:38,939 --> 00:14:39,499
No, no, no.

242
00:14:39,500 --> 00:14:40,900
- That's not how it works, though.
- OK.

243
00:14:40,990 --> 00:14:41,926
I mean, I think maybe

244
00:14:41,927 --> 00:14:43,627
- I should just read some more, and maybe
- Yeah

245
00:14:43,628 --> 00:14:45,163
things'll start slotting into place.

246
00:14:45,179 --> 00:14:48,576
- I think so, I think, er--
- It's only Chapter 2.

247
00:14:48,859 --> 00:14:54,169
Um, er, well, er, how about
making a meal, is that "Create"?

248
00:14:56,030 --> 00:14:59,304
Yeah, sure. Yeah, no, it's good,
it's not a bad example*.

249
00:14:59,305 --> 00:15:00,926
- OK, a meal.  Make a meal.
- So it's [a daily happening?]

250
00:15:01,206 --> 00:15:03,138
- So making a meal is creating it.
- Good

251
00:15:03,192 --> 00:15:07,164
- Eating it is surviving.
- [Is it?]?

252
00:15:07,187 --> 00:15:11,581
And when it's all gone, you're destroyed--
you've destroyed the food*.

253
00:15:13,838 --> 00:15:15,210
Once our train arrived in Munich,

254
00:15:15,285 --> 00:15:17,519
I had* to put my Scientology
book out of sight.

255
00:15:19,871 --> 00:15:22,148
The woman I was here to meet
would explain why.

256
00:15:28,312 --> 00:15:33,179
Since '96, when you want
an official job,

257
00:15:33,769 --> 00:15:35,429
you have to sign a paper,

258
00:15:35,963 --> 00:15:38,900
where it is written on that
you are _not_ a Scientologist.

259
00:15:39,127 --> 00:15:42,010
- Only a Scient--
- Only in Scientology, not a church.

260
00:15:42,365 --> 00:15:44,928
They don't care if
you are any other religion,

261
00:15:45,036 --> 00:15:46,336
any other belief,

262
00:15:46,640 --> 00:15:48,588
whether you believe in God
or don't believe in God.

263
00:15:48,589 --> 00:15:50,540
The only questions
are about Scientology?

264
00:15:50,541 --> 00:15:54,803
Yes.  Do you support that
you make some little work[?]*

265
00:15:55,012 --> 00:15:57,167
along the methods
of L. Ron Hubbard?

266
00:15:57,273 --> 00:15:58,397
These are very
specific questions.

267
00:15:58,398 --> 00:16:01,306
- You have to fill this
for every job you do?
- Yes.

268
00:16:00,124 --> 00:16:01,212
- ...you do
- Yes.

269
00:16:01,314 --> 00:16:04,104
- Every government job?
- When, when the, yes, when the, when the*...

270
00:16:04,105 --> 00:16:06,362
Did you tell, did you tell your children
you are a Scientologist?

271
00:16:06,366 --> 00:16:08,476
I don't use the word "Scientology" so much

272
00:16:08,532 --> 00:16:10,364
because I am afraid
they go out and

273
00:16:10,365 --> 00:16:12,551
use the word "Scientology"
on the wrong person.

274
00:16:12,689 --> 00:16:13,848
Some friends say,

275
00:16:13,849 --> 00:16:16,613
"No, I don't want to see you
because you are dangerous".

276
00:16:17,110 --> 00:16:20,037
- The Church of Scientology doesn't like you.
- Mmm-hmm.

277
00:16:21,292 --> 00:16:23,259
- The German authorities don't like you.
- Mmm-hmm.

278
00:16:23,991 --> 00:16:26,893
Who likes you?  Who supports you?
Who helps you?

279
00:16:26,894 --> 00:16:27,924
The friends who know it.

280
00:16:28,821 --> 00:16:30,096
It would have been easier in your life

281
00:16:30,097 --> 00:16:33,165
to give up Scientology
than to keep going.

282
00:16:33,555 --> 00:16:38,460
Yes, but, then life would be
more difficult.

283
00:16:38,770 --> 00:16:40,461
Do you know, I have spoken to
quite a few

284
00:16:40,678 --> 00:16:42,112
Scientologists in the last few days.

285
00:16:42,570 --> 00:16:45,166
- They all say the same thing.
- Mmm-hmm.

286
00:16:45,167 --> 00:16:49,555
- They all say life is better, life becomes easier.
- Yeah.  Yeah.

287
00:16:49,556 --> 00:16:52,677
I also believe that
some time will come

288
00:16:52,678 --> 00:16:55,959
where you can say* and it is
no problem, I believe this too.

289
00:16:56,459 --> 00:16:58,835
And when I am one of
the first thousand

290
00:16:59,047 --> 00:17:02,511
or five thousand people who go
this way, I am, I am part of this.

291
00:17:03,333 --> 00:17:05,293
The first Christians also
must hide,

292
00:17:05,573 --> 00:17:07,210
and then it become
a big religion.

293
00:17:09,857 --> 00:17:13,046
What is it about Scientology
that repulses so many of us,

294
00:17:13,536 --> 00:17:16,648
yet compels some people to sacrifice
their freedom for this knowledge?

295
00:17:18,306 --> 00:17:19,354
If there is an answer,

296
00:17:19,355 --> 00:17:20,889
it is either in the books
I am reading

297
00:17:21,235 --> 00:17:22,385
or it lies in the training camp,

298
00:17:22,588 --> 00:17:24,829
deep behind the
former Iron Curtain.

299
00:17:34,005 --> 00:17:35,773
Slightly impenetrable again.

300
00:17:35,794 --> 00:17:38,680
What you have to understand about
"The Fundamentals of Thought", is

301
00:17:38,931 --> 00:17:42,835
that it is actually written in
incredibly simple language.

302
00:17:42,968 --> 00:17:46,507
There is not, really, a difficult word in it.

303
00:17:47,443 --> 00:17:51,524
It's just, quite bizarrely written, like

304
00:17:51,733 --> 00:17:53,484
nothing else I have ever read before.

305
00:17:54,370 --> 00:17:56,308
"An auditor processing a ple-, preclear

306
00:17:57,132 --> 00:18:00,607
"would always use effect processes
to increase doingness."

307
00:18:00,218 --> 00:18:03,318
"What effect could you
create on father?"

308
00:18:03,417 --> 00:18:05,951
I don't actually know
what that question means.

309
00:18:06,643 --> 00:18:09,772
"What effect could you
create on father?"

310
00:18:15,837 --> 00:18:17,864
I mean I understand
all the individual words.

311
00:18:18,570 --> 00:18:22,362
I understand the nouns,
the verbs and the prepositions.

312
00:18:22,973 --> 00:18:25,388
I don't understand
what the sentence means.

313
00:18:25,931 --> 00:18:28,179
When you start your course,

314
00:18:28,188 --> 00:18:29,561
you will learn how
to be a student

315
00:18:29,579 --> 00:18:30,849
in the beginning of the course.

316
00:18:30,880 --> 00:18:33,064
Now, right now when
you study this book,

317
00:18:33,065 --> 00:18:35,821
I think the only introduction
on how to study

318
00:18:35,962 --> 00:18:40,590
is probably this "Important Note"
in the beginning which says,

319
00:18:40,852 --> 00:18:44,025
"Always get any word or phrase
you do not fully understand defined."

320
00:18:44,061 --> 00:18:45,973
There isn't a word in that book
I don't understand.

321
00:18:45,986 --> 00:18:47,290
- No, no, I und--
- Test me.

322
00:18:47,291 --> 00:18:48,791
- Open it, any page.
- Got it.

323
00:18:48,792 --> 00:18:50,092
- Open it, any page.  Test me.

324
00:18:50,139 --> 00:18:51,753
I'm fucking there, man*.

325
00:18:51,754 --> 00:18:53,102
No, no, that's not
what I am saying.

326
00:18:53,103 --> 00:18:54,993
See, I'm totally, I'm totally
tracking with* you on that.

327
00:18:54,994 --> 00:18:56,514
What I'm saying is

328
00:18:56,515 --> 00:19:00,306
this is the only data that
you have gotten on how to study.

329
00:19:00,512 --> 00:19:02,696
There is so much more data
on how to study.

330
00:19:02,893 --> 00:19:04,566
Are you suggesting that
I don't read this book then?

331
00:19:04,567 --> 00:19:05,655
No, you're doing great.

332
00:19:05,656 --> 00:19:06,780
It's really not a problem.

333
00:19:06,781 --> 00:19:09,056
Because you're sorting it out*,
we're, we're sorting it out,

334
00:19:09,322 --> 00:19:11,361
I'm quite happy
the way we're going.

335
00:19:11,362 --> 00:19:13,990
This is really good.

336
00:19:13,991 --> 00:19:16,433
I mean, anyone can study
a book and if you get,

337
00:19:16,434 --> 00:19:22,012
*if you get one fifth or one tenth
that you go

338
00:19:22,214 --> 00:19:24,231
*in the end of having finished
that book, go

339
00:19:24,528 --> 00:19:28,914
*"Oh I see that, oh yeah" you know,
hey that is one tenth

340
00:19:28,915 --> 00:19:31,168
*better than not getting one tenth, isn't it?

341
00:19:32,517 --> 00:19:34,431
- That's simple maths, yeah.
- Yeah.

342
00:19:36,139 --> 00:19:38,472
I'm not struggling with that
at all.

343
00:19:40,595 --> 00:19:41,853
Yeah, well, it's true, isn't it?

344
00:19:41,854 --> 00:19:43,599
- If you, you know, if you enjoyed that chat
- I always said it

345
00:19:43,600 --> 00:19:45,098
half as much as I did

346
00:19:45,099 --> 00:19:46,655
you enjoyed it twice as much--

347
00:19:46,859 --> 00:19:49,579
you know, I mean, it's not even maths, it's arithmetic.

348
00:19:49,680 --> 00:19:53,780
[LOUDSPEAKER]

349
00:19:59,856 --> 00:20:02,439
Look at this snow.
Oh man.  I love this.

350
00:20:02,440 --> 00:20:05,640
Look at this stuff.
Unbelievable. Look at it!

351
00:20:05,641 --> 00:20:09,516
This is great snow.
Go skiing in it, man.

352
00:20:10,834 --> 00:20:14,255
My Scientology's mentor playing
like a five-year-old in the snow.

353
00:20:14,320 --> 00:20:15,579
Is there anything wrong with that?

354
00:20:15,656 --> 00:20:20,642
What the fuck are you going to
teach me about L. Ron?  Bastard.

355
00:20:27,522 --> 00:20:35,533
This conference is in a disused Soviet
children's summer camp that has no signposts.

356
00:20:35,618 --> 00:20:37,834
I don't mean any ha--*
I mean no signposts.

357
00:20:37,846 --> 00:20:42,366
Clearly, they don't want anyone
to know where they are, even us,

358
00:20:42,836 --> 00:20:45,115
and we're meant to be there.

359
00:20:45,069 --> 00:20:45,956
I'm getting scared now

360
00:20:45,978 --> 00:20:48,395
because we've only got
enough food to last us a week

361
00:20:48,464 --> 00:20:50,643
and only enough vodka
to last us an hour.

362
00:20:59,639 --> 00:21:00,797
- Hello
- Hello

363
00:21:00,818 --> 00:21:03,541
- How are you?
- I am fine.  And you?

364
00:21:03,599 --> 00:21:05,504
Three kisses.  I remembered.

365
00:21:05,880 --> 00:21:08,413
It's very good to see you.
Very good to see you.

366
00:21:08,414 --> 00:21:10,139
- Good to see you.
- We, we brought the snow with us.

367
00:21:17,040 --> 00:21:18,940
- This is where you will study.
- OK

368
00:21:20,555 --> 00:21:24,723
You are going to learn
basic things about life.

369
00:21:25,511 --> 00:21:27,997
There will be some part
about communication.

370
00:21:28,648 --> 00:21:31,056
There will be* about emotions.

371
00:21:31,711 --> 00:21:38,046
Then, there will also be the
basic parts of what you are,

372
00:21:38,504 --> 00:21:42,044
for example, being a thetan
having a mind, having a body;

373
00:21:42,076 --> 00:21:46,410
a thetan, this is you,
this is just you yourself,

374
00:21:46,411 --> 00:21:48,811
a spiritual being without body.

375
00:22:00,866 --> 00:22:03,214
Welcome to the world
of L. Ron Hubbard.

376
00:22:09,265 --> 00:22:12,699
A week into my Scientology road trip
I have met a variety of people,

377
00:22:13,000 --> 00:22:15,497
talked a lot, read some books
and understood little.

378
00:22:16,058 --> 00:22:17,840
I am aiming to be audited
in a week's time.

379
00:22:18,263 --> 00:22:20,809
This is Day One of
my actual training.

380
00:22:21,247 --> 00:22:23,521
I'm taking an unofficial
Scientology course

381
00:22:23,750 --> 00:22:26,684
and I have only three days
to learn as much as I can.

382
00:22:27,058 --> 00:22:30,340
Max and Dom think this course
will help me understand auditing.

383
00:22:31,593 --> 00:22:32,635
It talks about the bridge.

384
00:22:34,578 --> 00:22:35,895
There's a fairly good explanation of it.

385
00:22:36,404 --> 00:22:39,876
There's a span across the abyss
of misery and degradation and sorrow

386
00:22:39,906 --> 00:22:44,937
to a higher plateau of ability
and happiness.  That makes sense.

387
00:22:45,656 --> 00:22:48,705
If one blindly accepts
facts and truths

388
00:22:48,706 --> 00:22:51,551
just because he is told he must
--facts and truths

389
00:22:51,552 --> 00:22:53,851
which do not seem true
to one or even false--

390
00:22:53,852 --> 00:22:55,823
the end result can be
an unhappy one.

391
00:22:55,824 --> 00:22:58,430
That is the alley to
the trash bin of* incompetence.

392
00:22:59,860 --> 00:23:02,180
Just mostly reading actually
 more than anything.

393
00:23:03,005 --> 00:23:04,612
Back to course!

394
00:23:04,826 --> 00:23:07,415
- Yeah, I've--
-OK, but

395
00:23:07,451 --> 00:23:10,495
if he wants something from you, he
should really come through me.

396
00:23:10,496 --> 00:23:12,296
If you wanted to ask me something...

397
00:23:12,297 --> 00:23:15,597
- so you don't have to go over--
- so you don't want me to talk to--

398
00:23:15,790 --> 00:23:17,800
No, not while you're studying, now you
are a student.

399
00:23:17,540 --> 00:23:18,768
OK.

400
00:23:30,140 --> 00:23:31,418
It's just like being back at school.

401
00:23:36,587 --> 00:23:38,605
I absolutely find some of this 
quite patronising.

402
00:23:38,965 --> 00:23:41,744
I don't have a problem with my own ego.
I'm not sure.

403
00:23:42,424 --> 00:23:49,433
In fact, some of it's like, it's very
straightforward and it's

404
00:23:49,791 --> 00:23:51,001
also a bit pointless.

405
00:23:56,917 --> 00:23:58,438
After a few hours of intense reading,

406
00:23:58,439 --> 00:24:00,939
 I had to write my first
 of many essays,

407
00:24:01,005 --> 00:24:01,875
essays on life.

408
00:24:02,668 --> 00:24:05,483
Great. Absolutely wonderful.

409
00:24:06,336 --> 00:24:07,292
Do I get marks out of ten?

410
00:24:07,930 --> 00:24:12,575
No.  But it's a pass.

411
00:24:12,776 --> 00:24:14,176
Time for clay

412
00:24:20,389 --> 00:24:22,233
The idea behind modelling clay is 

413
00:24:22,234 --> 00:24:24,734
to give physical form 
to mental thoughts.

414
00:24:24,763 --> 00:24:27,900
Like everything in Scientology,
 it starts off easy.

415
00:24:39,247 --> 00:24:44,964
Rubber, wood, lead.  
It's a pencil.  Hey!

416
00:24:46,263 --> 00:24:47,789
I've got loads to do.

417
00:24:48,321 --> 00:24:51,899
Every course, and there are over thirty,
 is divided into tiers.

418
00:24:52,259 --> 00:24:55,860
Each tier is sub-divided into 
reading and practicals and

419
00:24:55,885 --> 00:24:58,542
I have to pass every one
 before moving on.

420
00:24:58,604 --> 00:25:00,857
- Excellent...carry on.
- Thank you very much.

421
00:25:02,867 --> 00:25:06,662
"Excellent", he said.  "Carry on".  I will.

422
00:25:07,335 --> 00:25:08,210
After my break.

423
00:25:08,397 --> 00:25:09,944
He writes stuff like, you know,

424
00:25:09,945 --> 00:25:12,045
 "It's the truth. Pursue the truth".

425
00:25:12,046 --> 00:25:17,027
You know, "My, my system", he says,

426
00:25:17,028 --> 00:25:22,228
 "is not the best system,
but it's a workable system".

427
00:25:22,271 --> 00:25:25,648
And he also says, 
"You have to find your own truth".

428
00:25:25,714 --> 00:25:28,703
And that's exactly what Dominic was
doing on the train, 

429
00:25:28,704 --> 00:25:30,904
not telling me his truth,

430
00:25:30,905 --> 00:25:34,860
but find your own truth.

431
00:25:34,861 --> 00:25:35,361
Hello

432
00:25:35,487 --> 00:25:36,863
- Hello, hello.
- Hello my dear

433
00:25:36,865 --> 00:25:38,365
- How are you?
- How are you?

434
00:25:38,398 --> 00:25:39,034
Are you well?

435
00:25:39,035 --> 00:25:40,235
- It is very pleasant to see you
- Ah--

436
00:25:40,336 --> 00:25:41,836
I want you to meet

437
00:25:41,837 --> 00:25:43,237
this nice woman, see

438
00:25:43,738 --> 00:25:44,838
- What?
- Hello.

439
00:25:44,639 --> 00:25:45,539
How do you like it?

440
00:25:44,840 --> 00:25:46,540
- Very nice
- Yes?

441
00:25:46,541 --> 00:25:47,841
- Yes
- It's very nice, see?

442
00:25:47,842 --> 00:25:48,842
- Very nice.

443
00:25:48,967 --> 00:25:50,452
- I love, I love you very much.

444
00:25:51,153 --> 00:25:53,853
And she, she, loves you very much

445
00:25:54,905 --> 00:25:56,022
Cherie, come here, come here.

446
00:25:56,769 --> 00:25:58,833
She, she wants to, to ask you

447
00:26:00,217 --> 00:26:02,750
She wants to ask you, ah,
what is your name?

448
00:26:03,309 --> 00:26:03,749
Hardeep

449
00:26:04,309 --> 00:26:05,623
Oh, one, one time please*

450
00:26:05,819 --> 00:26:06,687
- Hardeep.
- Hardeep.

451
00:26:07,012 --> 00:26:08,087
-  Hardeep.
-  Hardeep.

452
00:26:08,764 --> 00:26:09,637
- Hardeep.
- Hardeep?

453
00:26:09,474 --> 00:26:10,609
- Yes.
- Is right?

454
00:26:10,641 --> 00:26:11,417
- Yes.
- Hardeep.

455
00:26:11,532 --> 00:26:13,966
- Yes.
- But, ah, I'm Helen--

456
00:26:14,249 --> 00:26:16,206
- and she is--
- Running away

457
00:26:17,423 --> 00:26:19,800
Despite their warmth and enthusiasm
I'm frustrated.

458
00:26:20,268 --> 00:26:22,297
I'm struggling to see how playing
with plasticene*

459
00:26:22,298 --> 00:26:23,798
and gently fingering through a dictionary

460
00:26:23,899 --> 00:26:27,499
will lead me to God.

461
00:26:27,793 --> 00:26:29,438
Here look, if you look at "Exhaustion"...

462
00:26:30,118 --> 00:26:30,938
Yeah?

463
00:26:31,186 --> 00:26:39,000
...yup, it's a, it's "a state of extremely
physical or mental tiredness or collapse"*.

464
00:26:40,467 --> 00:26:43,763
Do you know what?  I know what exhaustion
is. I don't need to look in the dictionary.

465
00:26:44,302 --> 00:26:47,656
[Well then...?], show him exhausted.
Show him exhausted and show...

466
00:26:47,876 --> 00:26:53,152
To me he's exhausted because he's
doing this at work and this at home

467
00:26:53,187 --> 00:26:53,899
Do me a favour.

468
00:26:54,079 --> 00:26:55,415
What?  I'm not doing it again.

469
00:26:55,515 --> 00:26:58,328
Put something there that shows
that this is what you've...

470
00:26:58,328 --> 00:27:00,936
But look, it's exactly the same, I don't
need to show it, it was there.

471
00:27:01,279 --> 00:27:04,498
See--I don't even see he's exhausted,
I see he's confused.

472
00:27:04,904 --> 00:27:08,500
OK.  Here's exhaustion with clay.
Look at me.  Exhausted.

473
00:27:11,417 --> 00:27:14,593
I see.  All right, well, we're at
an impasse, aren't we?

474
00:27:15,327 --> 00:27:16,361
Not really. We'll just move on.

475
00:27:16,467 --> 00:27:18,339
- Mmm-hmm?
- We'll just move on.

476
00:27:18,705 --> 00:27:21,873
Nah*. Can't really move on, mate.
Not until we get this done.

477
00:27:22,226 --> 00:27:25,153
This is ridiculous.  I understand the
concept perfectly.

478
00:27:30,383 --> 00:27:32,417
Sorry, this is just really
 fucking me off*.

479
00:27:33,418 --> 00:27:37,218
Fucking--it's ridiculous*.  
Is, is it not clear?

480
00:27:37,488 --> 00:27:38,959
It wasn't clear to you?

481
00:27:39,250 --> 00:27:40,519
Oh, fuck off.

482
00:27:43,452 --> 00:27:45,998
Don't think I appreciate you being
nice to me, either, OK?

483
00:27:55,059 --> 00:27:56,247
- Communication
- Affinity

484
00:27:56,652 --> 00:27:57,654
Oh, affinity.

485
00:27:58,808 --> 00:28:00,403
reality, communication

486
00:28:01,049 --> 00:28:03,832
- Let me look for myself.
- Oh, sorry, sorry, sorry.

487
00:28:03,839 --> 00:28:05,705
-No, no, it's quite OK, quite OK
- Sorry

488
00:28:06,144 --> 00:28:07,799
I did a claymation of dogs fucking.

489
00:28:08,152 --> 00:28:15,277
I mean, I did, dogs sniffing arses
and dogs fucking

490
00:28:15,746 --> 00:28:17,808
I'm an intelligent man with a
degree in law.

491
00:28:18,654 --> 00:28:20,641
To be honest, I think I've got a
slight problem with authority.

492
00:28:22,190 --> 00:28:24,715
I don't really like being told what to do.

493
00:28:25,754 --> 00:28:28,653
He was patient with me, and encouraging.

494
00:28:29,241 --> 00:28:31,936
And was really diligent, actually,
you know, he's very sweet,

495
00:28:32,223 --> 00:28:34,184
and I think, he's, you know,
he's putting up with* me

496
00:28:34,244 --> 00:28:38,338
when perhaps less patient people
wouldn't put up with me.

497
00:28:42,953 --> 00:28:44,016
Every night at the camp

498
00:28:44,144 --> 00:28:46,829
there was a small ceremony to
recognize people's achievements.

499
00:28:55,312 --> 00:28:57,478
And afterwards, in the finest
Russian tradition,

500
00:28:57,550 --> 00:29:01,300
a debate about life and God
over* strong black tea.

501
00:29:02,394 --> 00:29:06,828
It's more understanding and knowing,
rather than belief in something.

502
00:29:07,769 --> 00:29:08,831
Do you believe in God?

503
00:29:09,299 --> 00:29:10,383
No.

504
00:29:12,078 --> 00:29:13,551
I know that God is.

505
00:29:15,300 --> 00:29:17,578
Scientologists believe they are
eternal spirits,

506
00:29:17,924 --> 00:29:20,801
but defining God is left to the individual.

507
00:29:23,266 --> 00:29:26,299
This morning I am out of the classroom
and into the practicals.

508
00:29:28,113 --> 00:29:30,799
This exercise is an adaptation of
Zen meditation,

509
00:29:31,266 --> 00:29:34,235
and it also teaches you how not
to fidget during auditing.

510
00:29:34,657 --> 00:29:37,110
I only managed half an hour,
whereas these people

511
00:29:37,110 --> 00:29:39,280
have been sitting here for
the past three days.

512
00:29:40,149 --> 00:29:43,727
To better understand my own auditing,
today I start auditor training.

513
00:29:44,175 --> 00:29:45,487
An auditor is not allowed to react

514
00:29:45,706 --> 00:29:47,877
to anything that the other person
might say,

515
00:29:48,110 --> 00:29:49,940
as a reaction by the auditor might induce

516
00:29:50,143 --> 00:29:51,913
a false reading on the E-meter.

517
00:29:52,346 --> 00:29:54,359
Basically, the object of this drill is

518
00:29:54,425 --> 00:29:56,050
to get a rise out of* your opponent.

519
00:29:56,642 --> 00:29:58,390
In this role-play, one of you
pretends to be

520
00:29:58,390 --> 00:30:00,390
an auditor and the other an auditee.

521
00:30:00,755 --> 00:30:03,347
If I say "That's it", that's the end of the drill.

522
00:30:03,580 --> 00:30:05,175
Or if I say "Flunk", that's the end of the drill.

523
00:30:05,753 --> 00:30:06,977
Ready?  Start.

524
00:30:07,592 --> 00:30:08,974
I'll tell you a little secret.

525
00:30:09,718 --> 00:30:11,036
It's just between you and me.

526
00:30:12,009 --> 00:30:15,018
Whenever--since the first day that we

527
00:30:15,018 --> 00:30:16,487
actually started working together,

528
00:30:17,235 --> 00:30:18,235
I wanted to kiss you.

529
00:30:19,950 --> 00:30:21,749
I just want to make 
a point here, yeah?

530
00:30:22,268 --> 00:30:23,986
You know, people talk 
about brainwashing?

531
00:30:25,034 --> 00:30:26,593
I've got you brainwashed, mate.

532
00:30:27,441 --> 00:30:28,484
The world is going to see

533
00:30:28,484 --> 00:30:30,234
Hardeep has been brainwashed.

534
00:30:30,403 --> 00:30:33,140
There's not going to be another job
for you ever again.

535
00:30:36,175 --> 00:30:37,373
You're really English, aren't you?

536
00:30:37,837 --> 00:30:38,861
Through and through*.

537
00:30:40,183 --> 00:30:42,076
From the nation of England.

538
00:30:43,986 --> 00:30:46,505
No?  OK.  Well, all right.

539
00:30:48,128 --> 00:30:51,173
That's it.  That's it.  That's it.

540
00:30:50,811 --> 00:30:52,787
Don't you ever fucking talk to me
like that again.

541
00:30:54,954 --> 00:30:55,586
What?

542
00:30:55,963 --> 00:30:57,277
Had you going*.

543
00:30:58,081 --> 00:31:00,286
So I can abuse you and you
won't flinch, you won't react?

544
00:31:00,330 --> 00:31:03,222
I've no idea.  To be honest I'm sure, you know,

545
00:31:03,472 --> 00:31:05,975
I'm sure you could probably find
some things on me.

546
00:31:06,565 --> 00:31:07,411
OK, we will start.

547
00:31:09,415 --> 00:31:11,300
What are you doing hanging out with
a loser like me?

548
00:31:11,696 --> 00:31:12,724
Do you want a kiss?

549
00:31:13,805 --> 00:31:15,148
I mean, are you in touch with yourself?

550
00:31:15,177 --> 00:31:16,112
Do you know who you are?

551
00:31:16,333 --> 00:31:18,159
Because, I mean, you seem
a bit lost to me in life*.

552
00:31:19,503 --> 00:31:21,975
You know, how old are you?
What, 35, 36?

553
00:31:22,474 --> 00:31:23,622
Where are you at?  
What are you doing?

554
00:31:23,638 --> 00:31:24,816
What have you achieved?

555
00:31:25,850 --> 00:31:27,242
You want to be me, don't you?

556
00:31:27,924 --> 00:31:29,689
And you hope that 
if you're inside me

557
00:31:31,008 --> 00:31:32,646
[You're?]* a right cock inside me

558
00:31:33,462 --> 00:31:34,628
Not that big, your cock, though, is it?

559
00:31:37,192 --> 00:31:38,442
Actually, you're German,
it's probably enormous

560
00:31:42,118 --> 00:31:43,240
Flunk

561
00:31:46,538 --> 00:31:49,720
I think inside you is a gay man
trapped inside

562
00:31:50,190 --> 00:31:51,409
Slightly overweight

563
00:31:51,892 --> 00:31:55,065
Flunk.  You're ashamed!

564
00:31:55,657 --> 00:31:57,178
*A big bear of a man, ha ha ha,

565
00:31:57,180 --> 00:31:57,908
*I'll be your bear tonight

566
00:31:58,008 --> 00:31:59,751
*Do you want me to be your bear?
Ha ha

567
00:31:59,771 --> 00:32:00,746
On a chain,

568
00:32:00,846 --> 00:32:03,534
dancing around the fire--ahh--

569
00:32:03,535 --> 00:32:04,535
No?

570
00:32:09,304 --> 00:32:11,001
I'm bonding with my supervisor.

571
00:32:12,927 --> 00:32:14,471
I remembered something Dom said

572
00:32:14,513 --> 00:32:16,272
to me on the train to Moscow.

573
00:32:16,556 --> 00:32:17,566
He said, if it's not fun,

574
00:32:17,869 --> 00:32:18,989
it's not Scientology.

575
00:32:19,223 --> 00:32:20,554
I've started to understand.

576
00:32:22,772 --> 00:32:24,564
In the next drill, the person being tested

577
00:32:24,782 --> 00:32:26,032
has* to make sure his question,

578
00:32:26,253 --> 00:32:28,535
"Do birds fly?" or "Do fish swim?",

579
00:32:28,835 --> 00:32:30,346
is answered without being put off*.

580
00:32:30,615 --> 00:32:33,032
Return?  Return to the auditing question?

581
00:32:33,178 --> 00:32:35,416
- Do birds fly?
- Did you say, "Return" or "Repeat"?

582
00:32:35,698 --> 00:32:37,253
I'll repeat the auditing question:

583
00:32:37,253 --> 00:32:38,390
- I thought I heard "return".
- Do birds fly?

584
00:32:39,332 --> 00:32:40,751
Do birds fly?  Yes, birds fly.

585
00:32:40,972 --> 00:32:42,406
- Great
- Great

586
00:32:43,115 --> 00:32:44,304
Next it was Dom's turn.

587
00:32:44,587 --> 00:32:46,062
And my frustration from the plasticene

588
00:32:46,062 --> 00:32:47,909
had found a natural outlet

589
00:32:54,768 --> 00:32:59,233
All right.  I'm ready.  Do birds fly?

590
00:32:59,640 --> 00:33:00,452
Fuck off.

591
00:33:01,280 --> 00:33:02,438
I'll repeat the auditing command.

592
00:33:02,735 --> 00:33:03,561
Do birds fly?

593
00:33:03,830 --> 00:33:04,686
Fuck off.

594
00:33:05,267 --> 00:33:06,405
I'll repeat the auditing command.

595
00:33:06,719 --> 00:33:07,936
Do birds fly?

596
00:33:07,754 --> 00:33:09,724
It's question, not command, you numbskull.

597
00:33:11,526 --> 00:33:16,539
- OK.
- I got* him!

598
00:33:16,820 --> 00:33:17,589
Do fish swim?

599
00:33:17,608 --> 00:33:18,183
Bleeuch.

600
00:33:18,349 --> 00:33:19,478
Thank you. Do fish swim?

601
00:33:19,479 --> 00:33:20,518
Bleuuch.

602
00:33:20,604 --> 00:33:23,904
- Thank you.  Do fish swim?
- I didn't say yes.  Flunk.

603
00:33:24,098 --> 00:33:25,423
I have already given you an answer.

604
00:33:25,593 --> 00:33:27,236
Why do you have to keep asking me
the question?

605
00:33:27,497 --> 00:33:28,783
It's just the way the patter goes, mate.*

606
00:33:29,768 --> 00:33:31,016
I'm not your mate at all.

607
00:33:31,093 --> 00:33:33,092
No probs.  I'll repeat the auditing question--

608
00:33:33,310 --> 00:33:35,001
Do birds fly?

609
00:33:35,283 --> 00:33:37,810
I don't know.  Do they fly or do we move?

610
00:33:37,910 --> 00:33:39,351
Do you know what I mean?

611
00:33:39,351 --> 00:33:42,672
They're basically still in the air
 when we, when we move

612
00:33:43,987 --> 00:33:44,657
Do birds fly?

613
00:33:44,658 --> 00:33:46,985
What's flying?  That's the question.

614
00:33:48,172 --> 00:33:48,566
Good question.

615
00:33:48,569 --> 00:33:50,312
Let's look it up in the dictionary.

616
00:33:50,579 --> 00:33:51,640
What?!

617
00:33:53,108 --> 00:33:54,249
Here, "flying"

618
00:33:54,985 --> 00:33:56,059
Does that clarify it for you?

619
00:33:56,097 --> 00:33:56,801
- Great
- Great

620
00:33:57,315 --> 00:33:58,574
I'll repeat the auditing question:

621
00:33:58,825 --> 00:33:59,610
Do birds fly?

622
00:33:59,710 --> 00:34:01,405
What's a dictionary?

623
00:34:03,094 --> 00:34:04,120
Good question.

624
00:34:04,121 --> 00:34:05,421
Is "Dictionary" in the dictionary?

625
00:34:05,622 --> 00:34:06,422
I think it is.

626
00:34:06,472 --> 00:34:07,860
And what's another word for "thesaurus"?

627
00:34:08,622 --> 00:34:09,766
You know what?*

628
00:34:09,766 --> 00:34:10,528
What?

629
00:34:10,528 --> 00:34:11,497
I'll repeat the auditing question:

630
00:34:11,997 --> 00:34:13,438
Do birds fish?

631
00:34:19,207 --> 00:34:22,124
OK, see, that's quite hypnotic,
that is quite hypnotic.

632
00:34:22,654 --> 00:34:24,951
See, if there is ever any accusation that

633
00:34:25,035 --> 00:34:26,639
Scientology is about brainwashing,

634
00:34:26,803 --> 00:34:28,270
it comes from that, I think.

635
00:34:28,271 --> 00:34:29,071
From this drill?

636
00:34:29,150 --> 00:34:33,522
Repeat, repeat, repeat, repeat,
repeat, except,

637
00:34:33,525 --> 00:34:35,668
people may think what you're asking

638
00:34:36,097 --> 00:34:37,075
is, you want--

639
00:34:37,228 --> 00:34:39,247
you're not actually interested in the answer,

640
00:34:39,348 --> 00:34:40,948
- No...
- are you?

641
00:34:40,960 --> 00:34:41,834
...not really.

642
00:34:42,052 --> 00:34:43,530
- You're not, are you?
- No.

643
00:34:43,612 --> 00:34:45,541
- You just want to know, did I answer it?
- Yes

644
00:34:45,566 --> 00:34:46,868
Or am I just fucking around?

645
00:34:47,782 --> 00:34:49,823
I don't quite understand what I'm doing here.

646
00:34:50,323 --> 00:34:51,785
I'm communicating this to you.

647
00:34:51,985 --> 00:34:53,187
What was the line? What did you just--

648
00:34:53,266 --> 00:34:54,744
"So you did, old fellow".

649
00:34:55,353 --> 00:34:57,962
You read it, you make it your own,
one cycle,

650
00:34:58,247 --> 00:35:01,056
- and you give it to me, just deliver it.
- OK

651
00:35:01,273 --> 00:35:03,423
From you the being, straight to me.

652
00:35:03,591 --> 00:35:07,391
"Well then, if you don't know
what uglify is, you are a simpleton".

653
00:35:07,622 --> 00:35:09,400
The more fun I had, the more I learned.

654
00:35:09,514 --> 00:35:12,103
And the farcical drills started
to make sense.

655
00:35:12,402 --> 00:35:13,637
They are ultimately designed to

656
00:35:13,637 --> 00:35:15,988
enable you to ask a clear question,

657
00:35:16,088 --> 00:35:19,338
get an answer, any answer, without reacting.

658
00:35:19,260 --> 00:35:21,403
This is a key auditing skill.

659
00:35:21,964 --> 00:35:23,401
"You can't remember what things?"

660
00:35:23,828 --> 00:35:24,644
Thank you.

661
00:35:25,343 --> 00:35:26,401
OK.

662
00:35:26,599 --> 00:35:28,998
"We beg your acceptance of this
elegant thimble".

663
00:35:29,641 --> 00:35:32,310
No, that's it.  It's not really
appropriate, that one.

664
00:35:32,411 --> 00:35:33,611
- OK. Shall I try again?
- Yeah

665
00:35:34,868 --> 00:35:36,447
- "What are you doing out here?"
- OK

666
00:35:36,911 --> 00:35:40,468
- "What are _you_ doing out here?"
- Yeah?

667
00:35:40,894 --> 00:35:42,465
- "What are you doing out here?"
- Nothing

668
00:35:42,935 --> 00:35:45,190
That's it. You're great, actually.
TR3 is a pass.

669
00:35:45,246 --> 00:35:46,637
- Great
- Do you want to do me?

670
00:35:46,874 --> 00:35:48,738
Hmmm, well, later.

671
00:35:51,363 --> 00:35:53,184
Am I not ready to be audited?

672
00:35:54,683 --> 00:35:56,319
You're pretty ready to be audited--

673
00:35:56,619 --> 00:35:58,277
Then audit me then!*

674
00:35:58,985 --> 00:36:00,373
I can't do that.  I'm not your auditor. You know--

675
00:36:01,983 --> 00:36:03,534
Seriously, why won't you audit me?

676
00:36:03,539 --> 00:36:07,147
Because, listen, what would happen
if I audit you?

677
00:36:08,269 --> 00:36:10,669
Number one, I have a rul--personal
rule for myself.

678
00:36:10,739 --> 00:36:12,855
- Yeah?
- Which is, I only audit people

679
00:36:12,856 --> 00:36:16,861
that I truly feel that I can help.

680
00:36:16,910 --> 00:36:17,919
You don't think I'll be honest

681
00:36:17,920 --> 00:36:19,074
in an auditing room, do you?

682
00:36:19,174 --> 00:36:20,578
I don't think it would work.

683
00:36:20,678 --> 00:36:22,221
- And that's why--
- Don't you believe me?

684
00:36:22,221 --> 00:36:23,752
- Generally I believe you, yeah.
- Thank you

685
00:36:23,876 --> 00:36:27,061
- Yeah
- I'll re...peat the auditing question.

686
00:36:28,706 --> 00:36:32,063
OK, listen, enough of the turban
fucking molestation*, man.

687
00:36:32,063 --> 00:36:33,284
He's trying to get my clothes off.

688
00:36:39,630 --> 00:36:41,095
Do you know what I can see?

689
00:36:43,528 --> 00:36:47,497
I can see some happy, spiritually aware,

690
00:36:48,178 --> 00:36:51,598
confident, loving, giving people,

691
00:36:52,953 --> 00:36:54,708
that's what I can see,

692
00:36:55,801 --> 00:36:59,003
and I can understand how giving people

693
00:36:59,003 --> 00:37:02,337
tools to deal with this life,

694
00:37:02,355 --> 00:37:04,619
giving people precision, giving people

695
00:37:04,619 --> 00:37:08,438
some sort of way of working out
their problems,

696
00:37:08,438 --> 00:37:10,401
that's rooted in a reality,

697
00:37:11,921 --> 00:37:13,994
improves the quality of their life.

698
00:37:17,123 --> 00:37:18,855
Day Three.  And I woke to a sunny morning

699
00:37:18,971 --> 00:37:20,911
feeling surprisingly invigorated.

700
00:37:21,023 --> 00:37:23,590
The penny was starting to drop.*

701
00:37:23,171 --> 00:37:26,381
It's been a long time since so much

702
00:37:26,449 --> 00:37:28,497
information has made so much sense

703
00:37:28,815 --> 00:37:31,204
in so short a period of time.

704
00:37:48,696 --> 00:37:50,671
- OK?
- Start.

705
00:37:51,213 --> 00:37:52,731
In the Tone Scale drill,

706
00:37:52,935 --> 00:37:54,465
we act out various levels of
human emotion,

707
00:37:54,807 --> 00:37:56,186
from euphoric to dead.

708
00:37:56,831 --> 00:37:58,060
Understanding the levels in between

709
00:37:58,340 --> 00:38:00,186
makes you a better communicator.

710
00:38:00,810 --> 00:38:02,498
It's no use trying to talk to
an angry person

711
00:38:02,769 --> 00:38:04,062
by being deleriously happy.

712
00:38:04,333 --> 00:38:05,833
But do you know I might flunk you there

713
00:38:06,250 --> 00:38:10,217
because you're really depressing me.

714
00:38:13,030 --> 00:38:14,658
Flunk.  You look post-coital.

715
00:38:14,682 --> 00:38:16,313
I what?

716
00:38:17,270 --> 00:38:20,022
Don't get into my fucking face!  You got it?
- Fuck you.

717
00:38:20,114 --> 00:38:21,296
- Fuck you!
- Twice!

718
00:38:21,309 --> 00:38:22,900
- Twice!
- OK. Squared.

719
00:38:22,920 --> 00:38:24,934
- Three times
- Whatever number you think of, bigger.

720
00:38:25,045 --> 00:38:28,593
- Do it yourself!
- Plus one. Plus one. Plus one. Plus one. Plus one. Plus one.

721
00:38:30,293 --> 00:38:33,084
- Unbelievable!
- "Unbelievable!"

722
00:38:36,922 --> 00:38:38,424
OK, I'm going to do it now, OK?

723
00:38:39,292 --> 00:38:40,908
You're too good at that.

724
00:38:41,206 --> 00:38:43,149
Look, I'll tell you why, because of the book

725
00:38:43,149 --> 00:38:47,535
is so well-written, you get it, you get it.

726
00:38:48,218 --> 00:38:50,285
You should read it, honestly.  Sit down.

727
00:38:50,566 --> 00:38:52,034
You're reading it in a rushed way now.

728
00:38:52,620 --> 00:38:53,648
Sit down and read it.

729
00:38:53,648 --> 00:38:57,897
And the tone scale, you see it,
it changes the way,

730
00:38:58,097 --> 00:39:00,149
the way I'm going to bring up
my children

731
00:39:00,513 --> 00:39:01,805
is going to change now.

732
00:39:03,190 --> 00:39:05,094
I'm scared that I'm walking down this

733
00:39:05,397 --> 00:39:10,083
boulevard of knowledge where
everything makes sense,

734
00:39:10,412 --> 00:39:13,036
the windows are painted white,
and you know,

735
00:39:13,288 --> 00:39:16,095
the sky is blue and the trees are green.

736
00:39:17,035 --> 00:39:18,461
And I'm just scared the minute I go*,

737
00:39:18,964 --> 00:39:20,837
"I completely accept all this"

738
00:39:20,838 --> 00:39:24,252
you take a left turn down Bizarre,
you know?

739
00:39:31,846 --> 00:39:34,214
I found myself believing so much of

740
00:39:34,424 --> 00:39:36,104
what I'd learned that I'm running out of

741
00:39:36,105 --> 00:39:38,006
difficult questions to ask you.

742
00:39:38,006 --> 00:39:40,263
I'm interested to know about this,

743
00:39:40,264 --> 00:39:43,064
stuff that perhaps you are not
so keen to talk about,

744
00:39:43,065 --> 00:39:45,443
if I can be blunt with you.

745
00:39:46,335 --> 00:39:48,223
There is talk about sort-of
space-ships and

746
00:39:48,223 --> 00:39:49,714
aliens and all this sort of thing

747
00:39:49,714 --> 00:39:52,100
associated with LRH.

748
00:39:52,692 --> 00:39:54,905
LRH sometimes speaks about aliens.

749
00:39:55,216 --> 00:39:57,120
He speaks about some--

750
00:39:57,121 --> 00:40:00,092
that there has been races around that...

751
00:40:01,315 --> 00:40:04,130
things were going on and there
have been techniques

752
00:40:04,130 --> 00:40:05,896
we don't know here on planet Earth.

753
00:40:06,254 --> 00:40:07,652
He certainly speaks about that.

754
00:40:08,825 --> 00:40:10,680
Max tactfully avoided the question.

755
00:40:10,945 --> 00:40:12,120
And with good reason.

756
00:40:12,348 --> 00:40:14,712
The ET issue in Scientology is essentially

757
00:40:14,712 --> 00:40:17,282
the Genesis chapter of its scriptures,

758
00:40:17,282 --> 00:40:19,352
and it is considered sacred.

759
00:40:19,601 --> 00:40:21,031
If I choose to continue with my studies,

760
00:40:21,031 --> 00:40:23,102
I would eventually receive this knowledge,

761
00:40:23,304 --> 00:40:24,571
but not before.

762
00:40:26,690 --> 00:40:28,852
Funny how we buy* angels and demons

763
00:40:28,852 --> 00:40:30,405
and all that, but not aliens and

764
00:40:30,666 --> 00:40:32,055
aliens actually would make more sense.

765
00:40:33,615 --> 00:40:35,041
The first step towards this knowledge is

766
00:40:35,414 --> 00:40:37,147
my next step in Scientology,

767
00:40:37,366 --> 00:40:38,601
the auditing session.

768
00:40:44,980 --> 00:40:47,285
What am I scared about?  The audit.

769
00:40:48,817 --> 00:40:49,913
What are, what are

770
00:40:49,945 --> 00:40:51,227
the parameters of the audit?

771
00:40:51,228 --> 00:40:52,372
What do they need to know?

772
00:40:52,733 --> 00:40:55,923
I don't know.  It's never been seen before.

773
00:40:56,354 --> 00:40:57,430
It's almost like I don't want

774
00:40:57,435 --> 00:40:58,883
the audit to be filmed.

775
00:41:00,265 --> 00:41:01,779
Massively unhelpful answer.

776
00:41:10,242 --> 00:41:11,778
I'm returning to the UK to undergo

777
00:41:11,779 --> 00:41:13,620
the ritual I've been training for.

778
00:41:14,105 --> 00:41:15,605
Auditing.

779
00:41:16,169 --> 00:41:17,182
Will I feel cleansed or

780
00:41:17,439 --> 00:41:18,934
will I feel brainwashed?

781
00:41:19,622 --> 00:41:21,668
After much soul-searching and
much deliberation

782
00:41:21,668 --> 00:41:23,636
I have finally agreed to allow cameras

783
00:41:23,636 --> 00:41:26,731
to film this most personal of experiences.

784
00:41:37,671 --> 00:41:39,613
This is the moment I have been approaching,

785
00:41:39,614 --> 00:41:41,823
with equal parts of curiosity and dread,

786
00:41:41,824 --> 00:41:43,315
for the past two weeks.

787
00:41:43,574 --> 00:41:44,578
Auditing.

788
00:41:44,579 --> 00:41:45,977
The significance of all the drills

789
00:41:45,978 --> 00:41:47,670
in Moscow should now become clear.

790
00:41:47,946 --> 00:41:50,532
I'm told this could take anywhere

791
00:41:50,533 --> 00:41:52,793
between twenty minutes and five hours.

792
00:41:53,072 --> 00:41:55,235
I'm to relax, concentrate, and above all

793
00:41:55,235 --> 00:41:57,700
not judge or analyze the process,

794
00:41:57,701 --> 00:41:59,639
as this will nullify its effectiveness.

795
00:42:00,292 --> 00:42:02,186
Because of the personal nature of auditing,

796
00:42:02,187 --> 00:42:04,215
I've asked the crew to set up the cameras

797
00:42:04,435 --> 00:42:05,701
and leave the room.

798
00:42:43,453 --> 00:42:45,353
Thank you.  Now, when I tell you
to squeeze the cans,

799
00:42:45,364 --> 00:42:47,518
give me like a gradual increase of pressure

800
00:42:47,623 --> 00:42:48,986
until a light squeeze is achieved,

801
00:42:48,986 --> 00:42:50,028
and then relax it.

802
00:42:50,360 --> 00:42:52,879
Great.  Take a deep breath in and

803
00:42:53,326 --> 00:42:54,328
let it out through your mouth.

804
00:42:57,646 --> 00:42:59,452
- OK, you're not tired, yeah?
- No

805
00:42:59,711 --> 00:43:03,695
- No. Is there any reason not to start session?
- No

806
00:43:03,872 --> 00:43:07,082
Good.  This is the session.

807
00:43:08,058 --> 00:43:13,715
All right.  What is the definition of
the word "time"?

808
00:43:17,284 --> 00:43:18,698
The past.

809
00:43:18,745 --> 00:43:20,453
What's the definition of the word "a"?

810
00:43:21,558 --> 00:43:25,112
- The letter "a".
- The indefinite article.

811
00:43:25,550 --> 00:43:28,487
That's fine.  And what's the definition

812
00:43:28,487 --> 00:43:29,897
of the word "recall"?

813
00:43:31,327 --> 00:43:34,714
- To remember.
- Great.  All right.

814
00:43:34,802 --> 00:43:36,320
Our next command goes like this:

815
00:43:37,084 --> 00:43:38,427
Recall a time.

816
00:43:39,011 --> 00:43:41,933
- Er, my wedding day.
- Thank you.

817
00:43:42,707 --> 00:43:43,800
Recall a time.

818
00:43:45,750 --> 00:43:48,707
My school, the street outside my school,

819
00:43:48,792 --> 00:43:50,709
Hill Street in Glasgow.

820
00:43:51,707 --> 00:43:54,958
Being a baby holding a balloon.

821
00:43:55,741 --> 00:43:56,956
Great.

822
00:43:57,446 --> 00:43:59,007
What is the definition of the word

823
00:43:59,007 --> 00:44:01,208
"communication"?

824
00:44:02,116 --> 00:44:03,832
To impart an idea that's acknowledged.

825
00:44:04,644 --> 00:44:06,449
Recall a communication.

826
00:44:09,410 --> 00:44:12,983
My dad saying, um, I was the

827
00:44:12,838 --> 00:44:14,270
cleverest of his sons,

828
00:44:14,272 --> 00:44:16,334
but I just never bothered to apply myself.

829
00:44:16,382 --> 00:44:17,393
Got it.

830
00:44:22,074 --> 00:44:23,865
What does "confront" mean?

831
00:44:24,965 --> 00:44:26,709
Er, to face head on.

832
00:44:27,481 --> 00:44:28,939
And the word "to"? T-O?

833
00:44:28,991 --> 00:44:30,839
Towards, facing.

834
00:44:30,929 --> 00:44:32,049
And what is the definition of

835
00:44:32,064 --> 00:44:35,295
- the word "like"?
- Like, to have affinity for.

836
00:44:35,449 --> 00:44:37,976
Good.  What would you like to confront?

837
00:44:41,816 --> 00:44:43,813
Talk to my parents.

838
00:44:51,972 --> 00:44:53,443
What would you like to confront?

839
00:44:55,292 --> 00:44:56,867
I would like to confront the dysfunctionality

840
00:44:56,914 --> 00:44:58,587
I have with my elder brother.

841
00:45:00,852 --> 00:45:05,581
- Good.  I want to do something with you.
- OK

842
00:45:06,117 --> 00:45:07,484
- I want to take up that sadness--
- Yeah

843
00:45:07,484 --> 00:45:10,038
on your brother, OK?

844
00:45:10,389 --> 00:45:11,901
I just want to assess it and

845
00:45:11,901 --> 00:45:13,415
check it out with you.

846
00:45:13,772 --> 00:45:15,177
All right. Let me, let me just
do this here.

847
00:45:15,215 --> 00:45:18,432
Was that a break in affinity? ...reality?

848
00:45:18,947 --> 00:45:21,745
...communication? ...understanding?

849
00:45:22,760 --> 00:45:23,958
All right.  I have it as

850
00:45:23,958 --> 00:45:25,620
a break in communication.

851
00:45:27,160 --> 00:45:28,983
I'd like to be a better brother.

852
00:45:28,983 --> 00:45:31,121
Maybe this low-level dysfunctionality.

853
00:45:31,321 --> 00:45:33,104
Because when we look at each other we know,

854
00:45:33,753 --> 00:45:37,213
I think we know, exactly what is going on,

855
00:45:37,670 --> 00:45:39,960
and he knows he can never say anything about it,

856
00:45:40,476 --> 00:45:42,321
because once he gives oxygen to his thoughts,

857
00:45:43,871 --> 00:45:45,495
he'll start thinking about them.

858
00:45:45,807 --> 00:45:46,845
While thoughts are merely in your head,

859
00:45:46,846 --> 00:45:48,774
you can hide them in dark corners.

860
00:45:49,265 --> 00:45:50,665
The minute you hear your voice say them

861
00:45:50,665 --> 00:45:52,185
it gives them a credibility and a weight,

862
00:45:52,185 --> 00:45:53,309
a mass.

863
00:45:55,673 --> 00:45:57,432
So, you know, we bumble along.

864
00:45:59,155 --> 00:46:00,667
Got it.

865
00:46:01,104 --> 00:46:02,417
How does it seem now?

866
00:46:05,529 --> 00:46:08,529
- Better...I feel physically lighter.
- OK

867
00:46:08,789 --> 00:46:10,044
I'm guessing my needle is floating.

868
00:46:10,145 --> 00:46:12,306
It is indeed.  Hey.

869
00:46:13,786 --> 00:46:15,158
A bit light-headed.

870
00:46:15,190 --> 00:46:19,372
- Ooh. That sometimes occurs.

871
00:46:19,414 --> 00:46:20,440
- OK

872
00:46:23,089 --> 00:46:24,335
End of session.

873
00:46:25,257 --> 00:46:27,549
Absolutely terrific.  I wouldn't have expected,

874
00:46:27,779 --> 00:46:30,883
I couldn't have expected anything more.

875
00:46:30,984 --> 00:46:33,084
I've been quite delighted with it,
to be honest.

876
00:46:34,403 --> 00:46:35,029
That was it.

877
00:46:35,404 --> 00:46:37,201
That's the great auditing mystery.

878
00:46:37,201 --> 00:46:38,736
Can you see now what they were

879
00:46:38,736 --> 00:46:40,262
teaching in Moscow?

880
00:46:41,864 --> 00:46:45,248
I needed to understand every word
in each question.

881
00:46:45,251 --> 00:46:47,190
First let me go through the words.

882
00:46:47,194 --> 00:46:48,984
What does "confront" mean?

883
00:46:49,326 --> 00:46:50,833
We need a dictionary.

884
00:46:50,794 --> 00:46:52,787
Always get any word or phrase

885
00:46:52,788 --> 00:46:54,271
you do not fully understand defined.

886
00:46:54,272 --> 00:46:55,771
Did you look at "Exhaustion"?

887
00:46:55,999 --> 00:46:56,684
Yeah?

888
00:46:56,887 --> 00:46:58,367
Each question needed to be asked

889
00:46:58,367 --> 00:46:59,708
in exactly the same way.

890
00:46:59,718 --> 00:47:01,188
Recall a communication.

891
00:47:01,398 --> 00:47:02,193
Do birds fly?

892
00:47:02,194 --> 00:47:03,202
Why don't you know whether

893
00:47:03,203 --> 00:47:04,167
birds fly or not?

894
00:47:04,367 --> 00:47:05,632
Recall a communication.

895
00:47:06,310 --> 00:47:07,056
I fly.

896
00:47:07,056 --> 00:47:07,782
OK.

897
00:47:09,023 --> 00:47:10,362
You're not actually interested

898
00:47:10,363 --> 00:47:13,019
- in the answer...are you?
- No

899
00:47:13,313 --> 00:47:14,376
Not really.

900
00:47:14,310 --> 00:47:15,904
The only reaction that interests the auditor

901
00:47:15,905 --> 00:47:17,211
is the E-meter.

902
00:47:17,660 --> 00:47:19,470
What would you like to confront?

903
00:47:19,932 --> 00:47:22,094
Talk to my parents.

904
00:47:23,273 --> 00:47:24,096
OK.

905
00:47:26,738 --> 00:47:28,568
So here I am at the end of this journey,

906
00:47:28,898 --> 00:47:30,532
the most unique of journeys.

907
00:47:30,792 --> 00:47:32,171
And what do I think?

908
00:47:32,076 --> 00:47:34,058
Well, everyone I met claimed that

909
00:47:33,858 --> 00:47:35,345
this religion helped them

910
00:47:35,345 --> 00:47:36,225
to be at peace with themselves,

911
00:47:36,270 --> 00:47:37,218
which in turn

912
00:47:37,219 --> 00:47:39,724
led to their own spiritual enlightenment.

913
00:47:40,223 --> 00:47:42,054
The big question is this:

914
00:47:42,569 --> 00:47:44,567
Did _I_ get God through the teachings of

915
00:47:44,567 --> 00:47:45,712
L. Ron Hubbard?

916
00:47:46,192 --> 00:47:47,159
Well, in two weeks,

917
00:47:47,159 --> 00:47:48,804
that's a tall order* for any religion.

918
00:47:49,462 --> 00:47:51,536
At the very least, what I have experienced

919
00:47:51,773 --> 00:47:54,424
is that Scientology does improve
people's lives,

920
00:47:54,424 --> 00:47:56,037
real people's lives.

921
00:47:56,631 --> 00:47:58,844
Will I carry on with my study
of Scientology?

922
00:47:59,097 --> 00:48:00,691
Do you know what?  I have no idea.

923
00:48:01,337 --> 00:48:03,534
Scientology is still a dirty word.


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